![]() I was at a point of multiple recurring nightmares every night, flashbacks all day, and unable to function… while trying to raise my child. You might try it and see if it helps you as much as it helped me. ![]() You can do the processing of what your nightmare or flashback writings in therapy instead of alone, if your therapist allows for that. After writing it out, you can do a second entry about what you think the dream or flashback represented, if there was a trigger, how you feel now about what the dream or flashback represented, possible symbolic meanings, etc., and include your anger, rage, loss, fear, grief, or any other feelings involved. Getting it down on paper gets it out of your head and “saved” somewhere that your brain and parts are aware of. The writing of it allows your mind to process in real time, and is shown to be therapeutic in itself. Have you tried writing down your nightmares and flashbacks and somatic sensations in detail? I know everyone says, “journaling, journaling, journaling!”… but for me it was literally having to write down every nightmare, night terror, and flashback, with as much detail as possible, in first person, like a story/novel, with as much description as possible about the environment, colors, lighting, sounds, shapes, and so on. I feel like I am going crazy slowly and my poor brain is desperately trying to finish the processing. My new T and I haven't started working with memories directly yet. I know I have to deal with the trauma and actually reprocess them as it's impossible to suppress them anymore. It happens in public too so I am afraid to go too far from my home without my partner in case I can't get back. Even though the session with the new T is slowly helping, I am still hijacked by the trauma that is swirling on the surface, It comes out in nightmares and visual or somatic flashbacks. ![]() She has been practicing for 20 years and never had this happen to any of her clients. I have a new therapist who is somatic and emdr trained and confirmed that what my previous therapist put me through was wrong and that being in such a severe state of distress for 7 months is inhumane. ![]() I ended treatment a month ago with this therapist. It made me feel like I am paying a ridiculous amount of money to relive my worst moments of life and instead of having some relief my PTSD got extremely bad so my present life collapsed. I 'processed ' 7 huge targets in these months and I continuously got worse and worse. The past 7 months have been like torture. I was really committed to going until the end with EMDR and I did it for 20 months in total. ![]()
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